THE UNFORGIVEN

I have been silent on this website for over 4 years now.  I never knew that some people could harbor so much hate and distrust, but I was proven wrong. I only make this post to commemorate that 20 years ago to the date my life was changed forever. What has happened in the past I can not change, nor can I repeal decisions I made. It is, what it is...but for people to condemn someone for being human and making mistakes for decades without having the heart, or compassion, to understand what torture that entails...that is beyond my comprehension. I have been stepped on, ridiculed, stolen from, assaulted, denegrated, shamed, exiled and hurt by many people over the course of my life...and there is not one of them that I could not forgive. We all have our trials in life...and I cannot condemn those whose struggles I do not know, nor understand. I am not a judge of people, for that is the domain of God alone. For those people whom I have crossed paths with in the past and feel that I have done them wrong...I am truly sorry that  there is nothing I could do to repent of my transgression against you to the point you could offer me forgiveness. I have never threatened anyone with violence, or retribution. I am not a vengeful soul. I admit that I am a mere human and a child of God. I am prone to mistakes and I have made my share. I have hurt people just as I have been hurt and for that, I am sorry. I offer my forgiveness to the pain I have caused to those that will accept it. For those whose hatred runs too deep, I offer a prayer that God may soften your heart and allow you to see and feel the pain of others. Forgiveness is one of the most difficult things humans can do, yet it is one of the cornerstones of Christianity. The best I can do is soften my heart and offer my sincere apologies to any who would have them...and thus remain in the realm of the unforgiven.