To FLETC Class 10PI-207, IOBTC 126 a General Apology.

This message is a general message for everyone in general who I attended class with at the FLETC in 1992. Specifically...if you were in FLETC Class 10PI-207, IOBTC 126...this is for you...exclusively. I want to deeply apologize to all for my unprofessional and disgraceful conduct during the course of the training. I did not want, nor desire, to put anyone through the pain and suffering a few of us were experiencing. I was an idiot for allowing myself to fall in love with a
classmate...and it affected my performance and behavior. As you probably surmised...I am a very sensitive person...a very artistic person...and a very emotional person. I allowed my feelings to overlap with official functions...and it was so uncomfortable for all of you. What happened back then...I would have never wished on anyone...and I mean anyone. I have had to live with so much guilt and remorse all of these years...I doubt I can ever be happy again. I know that the accusations were flying...but I blame no-one. I have never blamed anyone but myself. Not Alma, not Lance, not Eloisa...just me. I know that many of you never really knew what was going on exactly...or why I was acting so oddly. If you are curious...you can read the story I wrote about how it changed me and maybe it will offer some insight to something that affected everyone in some way. Check out my January 2005 archives on this blog. Starting with the 1st of 3 volumes titled My Soul of the Moon...then The Thief of Dreams...followed by the Decade of Sorrow. I am warning you that it is written from the depths of my artistic soul...but it is a story I needed to tell. I hope that you can at least understand what went wrong...what I screwed up...and why it affected me so harshly.

I again offer the deepest apologies to everyone in my class. I never meant for any troubles to happen. I was looking forward to a long and great career...of course that has been over for years.
Feel free to leave comments if you like. I feel just a little better knowing I tried to make some amends...even at this late date. Thank you for listening to me and may God bless.